When you lose a loved one or a close friend, how do you hold it together?.....?

I found I could keep it together if I was prepared. For example, visiting places we used to go - I would prepare myself for feeling sad. It was the unexpected that I had trouble dealing with, for example hearing music we had both liked. I remember driving to work, listening to the radio and hearing one of our favourite songs that had played a big part in our relationship and just having to stop the car and cry. When someone close to you dies you go through a range of emotions, sometimes I felt quite angry and other times very emotional and lost. But it is true that time heals and brings acceptance.