Do I have to ?

Im 14, and I have not d yet. I refuse to masturbate (religious reasons) and I am afraid of experiencing my first ejaculation. Is it going to come no matter what? And I am just wary of experiencing excitement and don't want answers saying "Its natural" and "don't be afraid". I simply want to know if it is necessary and inevitable to experience ejaculation without masturbation or ual stimulation. I have not had a nocturnal emission as of yet. And can the "giz in your pants" thing" (misspelling to avoid this ****) come true. And do you have to be in a state of to ? A lot of question I know, just answer the them as best as your can. Be as thorough as possible but I would not like a simple copy and paste job strait from Wikipedia. Thanks in advance.