LONG story short I was with this guy from 15-18years old 1st everything love of my life or so it felt like?

I know I was young but it felt like more than lust infatuation it felt real i thought i was gonna marry him, well I get pregnant he goes to jail were both happy and keep our daughter, I stay with him for a year while hes in jail but then it gets too emotionally exhausting I break up with him to focus on myself we lose contact 4 years later he is now out of jail and I cannot stop loving him I want to be with him I want us to be a family but he doesnt love me any more he has no desire to be with me iwe dont talk unless its about our daughter and even that is seldom it kills me everytime him and his mom have her and I just wanna pick up the phone to talk to him or hang out like old times and sad part is I dont even think he remembers half of what we went through which was ALOt because towards the end of our relationship he did drugs which is a whole different story anyway how the @#!*% do i get over him when he will always be in my life? has anyone ever been through something similar? I had 4 years to get over him I thought i was but every now and then I would always think about getting back together when he got out, I honestly have no desire to get to know or date anyone I just wanna be with him...help... I am now 22 any advice please no @#!*% up comments seriously